from “Soft Targets”
Copyright © 2017 by Deborah Landau. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on October 25, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
Copyright © 2017 by Deborah Landau. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on October 25, 2017, by the Academy of American Poets.
the moon might rise and it might not
and if it brings a ghost light we will read beneath it
and if it returns to earth
we will listen for its phrases
and if I’m alone at the bedside table
I will have a ghost book to refer to
and when I lie back I’ll see its imprint
beneath my blood-red lids:
I’m on a bike and someone’s name is forming.
The road is potholes the road is dust.
Cruising the dirt, the meadow humming with bugs.
Dust rising, tires crushing rock, bats ejecting from under the barn
streaming the insected air the pulse life repeating life looping back
slowing down getting longer though it didn’t and isn’t.
A little letting go of fear.
A little spittle in death’s eye.
Don’t ask don’t think (I didn’t ask or think).
Didn’t think don’t think.
Kissing his cheek. Swallowing water. An orgasm.
Blooms on the nightstand. Too many peaches to eat.
A bit of that drench. A residue.
Can’t reenact though we try and try.
Ecstasy belongs to the past, when twenty,
when back then, when all-out and youth burn.
A lyrical time. I revisit it in dreams